Beyond

And yet I still travel..

Hoping to get distracted for a bit..

Giving the heart some rest..

Happy New Year yh..

If there's anything in this world I can do to have your friendship back..

I'd go beyond..

I mean it..

and I will give my best..

I'm really really sorry

yh

Void

An evaluation for the year?

Travelled a fair bit..

Worked in one of the greatest company..

Bought some cool gears for myself..

And yes..

We all know very well..

That all those..

Could not fill this void..

I'm really sorry for the bad things I've done..

I'm really sorry..

Cancer

I don't know which is worse..

Having lung cancer..

Or

Going through this..

I'm really sorry... 

Learn

People say..

We learn from our mistakes..

I say no..

We can all just learn from one idiot's mistake..

me

Don't have to go through what I went..

waste of time..

hurts like mad..

it really kills..

I'm sorry yh..

Reminder

I guess this marks another year..

A reminder..

of my supreme idiocity..

Urgh..

hurts so bad..

I'm really sorry yh..

Human

What I want for Christmas..

a little less cold..

a little more understanding..

a little less outcast..

a little less emotionless..

..

to be a little more human..

..

 

I'm sorry yh...

Merry Christmas..

Haunting

I wanna say stop haunting...

But I will not rest well for the things I did..

If this was revenge..

It is a good one..

I'm really sorry..

Please forgive me..

Matter

It doesn't really matter

how many friends you have..

As long as you have your family..

You'll never grow lonely..

...

That's if you have a family ..

...

Foolishly

It was this date...

where I so foolishly decided to lose it all

Everything..

Can't explain how angry am I at myself..

Such regret..

I really wish I could turn back time...

I'm sorry...

I really am..

Red

Ppl say

The music we listen to..

The ppl we mix with..

And the books we read..

Will tell what kind of person we are..

So why can't I blame my past?

I wasn't taught to love books..

Growing up with friends from a red light district..

No love...

...

Help me..

Smaug

Poor Smaug..

Filthy rich..

Powerful..

Conqueror..

Yet in desolation..

Can't turn back time to undo the things he did..

Can't do anything to change it..

Can he?

I'm sorry..

Mr.

I'm sorry, Mr. Time...

I don't really know what I want..

For you to move faster..

or slower..

I want you to move faster to heal..

But I want you to slow down..

because I'm not ready for what I want..

or what comes next...

I'm sorry..

I'm sorry, YH..

Hear

Can anyone hear me?

Or nobody wants to listen to me?

...

I'm sorry

Nuts

During this time..

I'll go nuts..

Looking for that perfect gift..

...

I miss doing that..

....

I'm sorry..

Miracle

I know there is no hope..

So I'm waiting for a miracle..

That's the only hope..

Please forgive me..

Run

No..

There's no place you can run

from your heart..

It's gonna hurt

And you're gonna feel it..

Help me..

Education

Save up for your children's education..

It's not just about the money and the job..

It is everything..

Who they'll mix with..

What kinda personality they'll have..

The way other ppl view them..

Their future..

Education is not cheap..

I can't afford them to end up like me..

Karma

Was told to give some time..

in exchange for an explanation..

gave..

and...

...

Maybe it's karma..

Sorry..

Tattooed

It used to be..

Coming home and putting down the mask..

Now..

It's like a clown's makeup

but tattooed instead..

Please help me..

Please...

Flying

I'm sorry..

For thinking that I could go there..

Meet up..

Say sorry..

And move forward..

That my one action..

that is flying there..

will change it all..

I'm sorry..

It is my fault..

Need

You didn't always get what you wanted..

..because they know you didn't need them..

You already have all you need...

Which is more than enough..

I wish I had it..

Blossom

It's sad but...

..people blossom..

..when I wither..

Restart

How do you move on?

I still can't find the restart button?

Describe

Such pain..

How can one even describe that feeling in words...

Ruining

That ache..

That haunting again..

I'm sorry for ruining what we had..

..to nothing..

Please give me a chance..

Look

I want to ask for another chance..

..but just look at the amount of chances I've been given..

I want to say I've changed..

..but look at the amount of times I've said it..

I want to say I'm really sorry..

..but just look at the number of times you used it last time..

..

I'm lost..

I don't know what to do..

Please help me..

Heard

Everytime I want to post something..

He'll remind me again..

that I'm in no position..

to post something like that..

Because of my actions..

So many things to say..

but I'm sorry..

that none can be heard from me..

I'm really sorry yh..

VBS

VBS

An extremely tiring week..

but a good distraction as well..

for now..

Unbearable

"She took your blardy nonsense countless times..

..and btw..

ALL UNBEARABLE!!!

and this is how you repay her..

Sometimes I think you deserve nothing but this.."

I'm sorry I took so long to realize

I'm such an idiot

I'm really sorry..

Please forgive me..

Jacket

Almost like a jacket..

Now kept in a closet..

If only I can just be more like a jacket..

I'm sorry yh..

Things don't have to be like the way before..

I just don't want to end things like it is now..

Please give me a chance..

AMEX

I work in AMEX..

I know it's cool to be part of an exclusivity...

I also know how sucky it feels to not be apart of it when everyone else is..

I'm sorry..

Hug

That hug

The comfort

The assurance

The security

The care

I'm sorry for taking it for granted..

I shouldn't have..

I'm sorry..

Hearts

Don't we all have broken hearts..

Of course..

I wish they didn't have to break first place..

I'm sorry for breaking your heart...

sorry..

Go

"Give him enough time..

..he'll let go.."

I'm sorry I can't give you want..

And it's really killing me..

Missing

Fly all around the world..

Hike more than 4200 metres high..

Dive more than 30 metres deep..

Still can't find what's missing in the heart..

Help me..

Please..

I'm sorry...

Driving

"YOU KEEP DRIVING PEOPLE AWAY!"

"WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO STOP!?"

Leave

I know..

..how it feels to be left..

..and to leave also..

I'm really sorry...

I wish I could turn back time..

Fading

No...

Please stop fading...

I'm really sorry...

Category

After all we've been through..

I still can't believe...

that I'm in that category...

Please give me a chance..

Say

I'm sorry I couldn't tell you what I wanted to say then...

Mistake

The most horrible mistake..

Even I am disgusted at myself for doing so..

Sorry yh..

Gifts

You once said..

Gifts and words..

..do not spell one's sorry..

..but by actions..

Please give me a chance..

I'm really sorry for what I've done in the past..

Wounds

I'm sorry for the deep wounds..

Really...

I am...

I really wanna do something about it..

..but I don't know..

Please give me a chance..

Grew

Oh, heart...

If only you grew faster...

I'm sorry...

Everyone

I know I can't please everyone..

But you are not everyone..

and I can't please everyone to please you as well..

Please give me a chance..

Rewind

Currently..

.Play.

There is..

Rewind.Pause.Forward

But sadly..

I can only..

Stop..

Trust

How does one earn trust again?

Please give me a chance...

Ashamed

I am ashamed to admit..

the things I did...

I'm sorry...

Forgive

I'm sorry I took too long..

Please forgive me..

Crushed

The feeling is like...

..being crushed..

Help me...

Family

For the family...

...

...for the family...

...

Lose

What if you lose...

your home

your family

your career

your friends

...

 What's next?

Help me...

Cold

It's cold there..

..remember to wear more..

It's cold here as well..

I'm sorry..

Deaf

Did what I said that day meant anything?

Or is it gonna be kept aside for now?

Or

did they fell on deaf ears...?

I'm sorry..

Please give me a chance..

I promise I won't disappoint you...

Laugh

We used to laugh together..

 

I miss those times..

Please give me a chance to change things around this time..

I promise I can and I will...

Standards

Sometimes I wish I have your standards...

I'm sorry..

I don't...

Pages

Even if I have the pages to write my story...

...

Will anyone read it?

Book

People say life is like a story book..

I feel like mine is like a scrap book..

Instead of others reading my story,

..they tear my pages..

making paper planes for their entertainment..

and when I run out of pages..

...

Nobody reads a book without pages..

War

I'm sorry for causing this war..

Here's my white flag..

I surrender..

...

..Wake up..

It is not as simple as simply raising a white flag..

I'm sorry..

Numbered

Numbered days...

:(

Broken

Broken hearts...

Everywhere..

All around me..

..even me..

I'm so sorry...

Edmund

Edmund...

..Edmund...

*shakes head*

I'm sorry, yh...

Road

No..

Even I don't wanna go down that road again..

Someone

Never thought I'd say this..

...

I don't feel like I wanna be me..

I feel I wanna be someone else..

"Me" isn't working..

.....

Young

We were once young..

Heavier

I have to keep going..

but the heart is getting heavier..

I can't leave my heart and go on..

It's too much to lose..

Been there..

I'm sorry..

I'll keep going..

Thoughts

So many thoughts..

that it is literally hurting my mind..

because I can do none of them..

I'm so limited..

I'm sorry things have to be this way..

I'm really sorry..

6.30pm

The place where I work..

requires me to smile at my best.

But how do I do that..

with what I'm currently feeling now?

9.30am to 6.30pm is a long time..

I'll keep trying..

I will...

Really..

Seriously..

I just feel so sad right now..

that I don't know what to do..

Calm

So many things running through my mind.

So many things I struggle to say.

But for now..

Keep calm

&

give time..

I hope I'm doing the right thing..

Please give me a chance.

I'm very sorry..

Feelings

Sad feelings are better than..

no feelings at all..

Please help me..

Afraid

To be honest..

I'm afraid of the answer...

the end..

Please be kind..

Finding

Finding yh...

I'm sorry...

Please give me a chance...

Loneliness

I didn't know you can starve because of loneliness..

Reality

Somehow..

I know this isn't reality..

but when am I going to wake up?

Alive

Am I alive?

Memory

I don't want to be a memory..

Please give  me a chance...

Erase

Since when did erasing someone became so easy?

Is it even possible?

Please don't erase me..

Give me a chance to be a good friend..

I don't wanna lose you..

I'm sorry..

Moving

Why don't I feel like I'm travelling?

It feels like I'm just moving..

Big

The world isn't a big enough place to run away...

not big enough...

Please help me..

Del

Shift + Del, Enter

Even if it was as simple as that..

 

I doubt it's gonna be easy..

Heck

Gosh...

What the heck was I thinking then...?

Disgusted

Stay

Sometimes..

I feel like I just need to leave..

because there's really..

nothing to stay for..

More reasons to leave in fact..

..seriously..

I'm sorry.

Nap

Everytime I wake up...

it feels like waking up from a nap...

never from a good sleep...

Tattoos

Tattoos are marks on the body..

Scars are marks on the body with a story..

and then there's the hidden scar..

..comes with a story as well..

but marked real deep in the heart..

I'm sorry..

Next

Seriously..

If it really happens..

then what's next?

Zombie

It's just so hard to enjoy anything..

when there's this weight pulling you down..

It's like trying to enjoy for..

..nothing..

like a zombie..

Wen

Happy birthday, Wen..

but..

why you too...?

Know

I don't know..

I know damn well

I don't deserve anymore chances

but here I am

still hoping

that there's a chance..

Really...

I really don't know..

Balloon

Purple balloon...

please come back..

I'm sorry..

I never should've let you go..

Story

Please don't tell everyone my story.

It hurts.

Please let me insert the fixing part in it first...

Funny

It's funny..

and sad in a way..

that I need a pair of ears to breathe..

Here is another week...

Draining

Everybody wants some of my joy

but

nobody wants any of my pain..

Draining quickly with no refill..

Please help me..

Jump

I don't wanna jump to conclusion

and make stories up like last time..

I want to hear your story first..

Ultimate

Death is not ultimate..

..suffering is..

Resting

'Can you keep up?'

No.

I feel like resting

but time won't stop for me..

or anybody, in fact.

Help me..

Treasure

Hi, Opportunity...

I'm sorry I blew my chance..

Big Time

Please give another chance..

I promise I will treasure it..

Please..

Strangers

I rather be strangers.

This is worse than strangers..

Trusting

"Keep trusting in Me."

ok..

Love

Will I ever be loved genuinely?

One day? Maybe?

Let's not even talk about 'life partner' love.

'Friend' love?

I know I did shit in the past.

How much harder must I work to make up for my mistakes?

or is forever not enough?

Stage

Omgosh.......

Please don't tell me that I've come to the stage

where I think these signs are telling me to die...

Hate this feeling..

URGH!

Rather

If so,

I rather not have the privilege to feel

than to kill the people I care for.

*Keeps hands in pocket*

I'm really sorry that things have to be this way..

Decays

When you realize

that whatever you touch

decays..

FCOL

24FCOL

Fixed

Damaged

Scared

Will I ever be treated as fixed?

or healed?

I hope I get one last chance..

Forever

I really hope it doesn't have to be like this forever..

I hope it won't be too late as well..

So much yet so little to hope for...

I'm so sorry...

Please give me a chance.

Birthday

If I can have one wish

for anything that I desire for this birthday...

It'll be..

to be forgiven

i'm sorry yh

Granted

I used to be cared..

then I took it for granted...

I'm sorry..

Now nobody cares..

Choice

I'm sorry

I can't make that choice.

Werewolf

I always thought I created a monster.

Like Frankenstein.

But turns out,

I'm the monster.

Like a Werewolf.

So how do you kill the beast

without killing the human inside it?

I'm sorry...

Pretending

Now..

when I try to sit alone

just to be still,

everyone thinks I'm pretending..

They mock me...

Mock

People hated me

for being bad in the past.

But now people mock me

for trying to be good..

It's a sad and tough to life now..

Please give me a chance..

Fail

Every time a rare opportunity arises

I try so hard

and I will fail.

But what if I fail 

 because I don't try hard enough?

: (

Faster

"You don't just walk out

and then come back

and expect everything to be aright!"

 ***

Dear time,

Please heal faster.

Hopefully

Hopefully I'll wake up one day

and this will all be just a dream

and

I will make sure this dream

will never come true..

Quiet

I'm a loud person

Always trying to be louder

to stand out among the crowd.

but...

****

I used to have a friend

who sits quietly

minds her own thing..

while I do the crazy things..

We watched each other from our different worlds.

I kept trying to get her to join me.

She tries..because she is a friend..

a very good one..

Until one day..

I shouted at her too loud to try harder...

for too long...

=which is the my biggest regret=

The crowd kept quiet

and they started leaving

including her...

****

I'm tired...

I just wanna sit down

and be quiet..

but I don't wanna sit alone...

I miss her..

I'm sorry for not accepting the person you were

I'm sorry for forcing you

I'm sorry for trying to be so loud to impress you

that I didn't listen to what you have to say

Avoided

At times, I shake my head at myself

regretting the things I did to her before

thinking of how all this could have been avoided

if I was a better person

Goodbye

I don't want to say goodbye..

:(

Mask

I go out,

I put on my mask.

I come home,

I hang up my mask.

everyday....

Relate

I know

 

there are people out there

 

who are really having a hard time

dealing with problems they don't want to share

or can't resolve..

I never thought I could relate to them...

Solution

There's no place or thing or someone

that could keep me distracted forever.

But I'm not even looking for a distraction.

I'm looking for a solution...

Principals

Who am I to change your principals?

or anyone's?

But I assure you

I will change myself.

he

Is he worth a friend?

Villains

Pity

how villains are viewed

even after they decide to be on the good side..

except for Gru I guess :)

Yet

I'm sorry I don't have a diploma or a degree cert yet.

I feel like I'm one class lower to deserve her friendship.

I'm not jumping into conclusion about how or whether she judges me or not.

I'm just saying how I feel..

Dare

... and the dreams that you dare to dream

really do come true...

Especially

It hurts so bad

to know that I'm being blocked,

to be cut away from someone.

Pushed away.

Especially by her..

I hope that there is still hope..

Saying

Is it better to

say too much than not saying what is needed to say

or

keeping silent than to saying too much

?

Memories

All those memories in the past

Are they still there?

Paint

I'm sorry

for making you tear down

all we've painted

and having to repaint all over again

It hurts me as well now to see all that we've painted

torn down...

I'm really regret

really...

I want to help paint..

but I don't dare after all I've done..

I hope you can give me a chance

to help paint back..

Created

I have to say...

I'm sorry I didn't how to handle things then

for not listening to your advice

for thinking I was doing the right thing

and because of all that

something was created between us

Now I'm trying to get rid of it.

There's no easy way

but to keep trying

hoping

praying

I'm very sorry I've created this thing.

Cursed

I think I'm cursed

I feel cursed

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Clown

The life of a clown.

Always trying to put a smile on people's face..

Trying to make each person's day a better one..

Showing that it's good to laugh once a while

and not to worry all the time...

 

 

 

 

but

 

 

 

 

 

 

clowns don't smile all the time...

 

 

 

 

 

 

So 

who makes a clown smile?

D

So this is what it feels like

to be hit

by the big D..

How do I even let myself live after what I've done..

I'm really sorry

World

Why does it feel like the whole world is against me?

I'm really sorry and I really regret about the things I did in the past.

Please give me JUST one more chance.

Trust me,

I WILL make it work..

Just trust me with one more chance.

Please...

Priceless

I walk all around the city.

Hoping to bump into her.

Hoping to hear from her.

I still have a few days more here.

I really hope I can meet up with her.

It can be anywhere

beach,restaurant,cafe,park,church,subway,my place,her place

Talk about anything

birthday,work,cooking/

baking,future,past,her,me,weather,Snowball,Betsy

I don't want to lose a friend like her because of
my ego, my stubborness,my rudeness
AND PLENTY MORE!

It's just not worth it!

She CAN'T be replaced!

SHE IS PRICELESS!

...

Happy birthday
old friend

I really miss having a good friend like you

Please give me a chance

Just one last one

I will not disappoint you

Please don't cut me out from your life

I'm really
sorry...

Travel

People travel for a lot of different reasons.

Here goes...

Ready

Am I ready?

I don't know..

but I have to try..

Murderer

It's funny

how I try to be the investigator

of a murder case

only to find that

I'm

actually the murderer.

That's not all..

I thought being the investigator

AND the murderer was all I could be..

Guess who's the victim..

Slap

I'm sad that I don't deserve a slap.

Appreciate

 

You came all the way to my work place to pass me this friend

and I know it means a lot to me and you

and I really appreciate it.

Thank you.

Erased

Are friends really that replaceable?

Am I?

I'm sorry I went that far...

 
I don't want to be replaced












or erased...

I'm sorry

Ears

Will you be my ears?

?

Door

I've always wanted to invite you into my house

but I never had a chance to.

We only spoke at the door..

Well,

at least we spent some time talking.

I'd really like to show you what's behind the door.

I hope you can be the person I can show it to...

or I'll have no one else I can show to....

Weigh

Please don't only recall the bad times

but the good times as well.

I know they don't weigh equal

but I'm trying to make the good times weigh heavier.

Please give me a chance..

Printed

Always with the 'if'

If I was given a chance to turn back time.

I will definitely learn from my every mistake

and stop being such an arrogant jerk.

I'm sorry I didn't listen in the past

I'm sorry I can't change what's already printed there

but please give me a chance

to write a better future..

Poisoned

Poisoned by emotions.

I used to think one can ignore emotions completely.

I'm sorry I didn't listened

Past

I'm trying really really hard..

but fact is

I really really can't change my past.

No matter how much I change in the present for the future,

it is just not going to change the past.

Help me.

Clarity

Why are you my clarity?

Sane

The little things that you used to do

is what's keeping me sane.

I miss your smile

:(

Movies

Directors.

Actors.

They put so much effort in putting value in a movie,

hoping that the audience will capture it.

But at the end of the day,

all those values

are

just an act...

So

.

.

.

do we really learn from movies?

or

"It's just a movie. Get real."

Do

It's not that I don't want to do anything..

but

I don't know what to do.

Why?

I know..

you know..

we know....

so

why?

Choices

It's great that we all have choices!

or is it?

Ass

I always though I knew it all.

Acting without a heart will get me far,

only focus on the result and not the process..

Then I realise

I was think not only without a heart

but without really using my brain as well..

Pure ass.

Superman

Superman movie was SUPER!

Fought so hard with a heart for his family and the people..

but I'm not Superman...

I'm limited..

Plan

Still plan A it is..

Uncomfortable

Not a day goes by

without feeling uncomfortable.

Please forgive me.

I'm sorry.

Painful

I used to want what I can't have

and

not appreciate what I already have..

Such a painful lesson

Fade

I hope I don't have to one day say

'Keep running. Don't look back. You're almost there.'

while I see you slowly fade..

50%

50% 50% now

Regards

Hi,

I'm so sorry(again) to inform that there might be a slight chance

 i won't be able to make it for this time round

I promise(really promise) that I will make it up to it.

Regards,

Edmund

Brain

I first thought that the brain can live without the heart...

but

neither both can live without each other

Nicer

I'm sorry

I didn't know I was giving my bad attitude

 a nicer name..

Blocked

Blocked.

Makes me regret even more for all I've done

I'm sorry..

I really don't know what you wanna hear from me..

 but I'm trying..

and I will keep trying..

Fortnight

It's like what..

a fortnight since?

...

Now what?

Listening

Is anybody out there really listening?

Surprise

Surprise!

Apparently depression can cause one's heart to grow weak..

and eventually stop at one point..

meaning=die

=\

Distracted

Run all you want?

You know it's coming

Travel to get distracted?

Think again..

Parenting

Every kid

has a family to teach/guide them on how to go through life.

Most of of them.

And the rest of them?

They've to go through error and trials.

I?

Only have my friends to rely on..

error and trials on them..

leaving scars and wounds everywhere..

Trust me, I really really don't want any of these..

I try very hard to learn without causing anymore damage but yet.....

I'm sorry...

Peeps..

Providing ain't everything about parenting.

Rot

A visitor walks out on you while you're on the bed

because of something wrong you did.

The sad thing is not that you can't get up

and do something about it.

The sad thing is...

Time will rot things while you lay in bed

and there is

nothing

you

can

do

about

it

<\3

Hearts were not made to be played around..

 and now it's broken..

I'm...






...sorry

Hopeless

Seriously

What does one do when there is no more hope left?

Live a hopeless life?

Guilt

Guilt-colored Glasses

...

Help me

Reminding

Everything keeps reminding of you

Please give me a chance to make things right..

Cry

I've seen her cry

I've made her cry

One of the biggest regrets in my life

Now look at who's cryin'

Hard

Why is it so hard to do the right thing?

Attention

Paying attention to the things that matter.

Do something.

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What is it that you are seeing that I am not seeing?

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