Serious

It's not just a feeling that will pass away..

I'm not writing for my fun/satisfaction..

I'm serious about this..

Let me make a change..

Give me a chance..

Butterfly

Throw it in the air

Strap some wings on it

The caterpillar is still not gonna fly..

 It'll fly once it becomes a butterfly..

but does the caterpillar want to become a butterfly in the 1st place?

P.O.V.

Not having the same point of view is tough

kinda sucks actually :\

but we gotta learn to accept each other's point of view

but what is your point of view?

Misinterpret

Misinterpret

I didn't realize it before

but now I do

Can we do something bout it?

Different

I want a different life

Was

It was never as easy as just changing who I was..

Sorry..

Unimaginably

To stand someone like him for around 4yrs,

I don't know how you do it.

Takes unimaginably a lot out of a person to do so..

If I were you,

heh

let's not get there

.

.

.

.

.

.

Thank you..

.

.

I wish things were more different then..

so that things can be different now..

Please give me a chance.

Intentions

I'm sorry my action causes destruction most of the time..

but my intentions are good..

really..

really...

Die

It was the 11th hour

and you screwed up..

If only somebody gave you a wake up slap

to appreciate before it's late..

Well,

Let's hope there's still a small of chance

 of getting one last chance

or I'll die trying

I've learned, I know I'm wrong, I've changed..

Please let me explain..

I'm sorry..

Checkmate?

Still hurting..

Still trying..

It's really killing me..

I don't know what else am I suppose to do..

I've done and tried almost everything in the past and I blew it.

They're not gonna work this time

I've no more moves..?

Checkmate?

I will not give up..

2010

For a moment..

 that few seconds..

it felt like 2010.

I'm sorry I didn't treasure those moments that time..

I do now..

and I miss them very much now.

Such regret...

boy

How do I know if I've changed and have become a better person?

How can I prove to you that I've changed?

"'Nobody said it was easy to accept changes so big and so sudden, boy..."

...ok...

But why are YOU telling me?

House

I

don't

want

to

be

like

Dr. House...

I can't...

Rare

Seems like you've used up all your cards..

You better draw something rare from the deck..

If it exists in the first place, that is..

and make it quick..

because time does not wait..

Bite

You can bite or claw me

but I will do my best to heal the wounds I've caused..

Sorry..

Smile

Everyday

when I wake up

I prepare myself for the day

I brush my teeth

I take a shower

Clothe myself

and before I exit

I pick it up and wear it

and only remove it when I'm back

in my four walls.

I hang it back at the usual place.

and the cycle goes on.

It's a burden.

Help me.

Please.

Close

I have to close my eyes to see you

to remember the past

but sadly

I can't close my eyes forever

Simpler

Life was so much simpler when we were young..

and I had to make things complicated.

Idiot.

Forgotten

I don't know what it feels like to be invisible.

But I'm sure this feels very much worse than that..

being forgotten.

I hope I'm not

Loan

Please loan me some time..

I promise to return them in multiple folds..

Please..

Haunt

Dear ghost,

 Please haunt me..

..in a good way only...

Thank you.

Believe

For better

or

For worse

People do change

If an idiot like me can change for the better,

I will always believe that that change will come one day..

Anytime

You can do all the crazy things in life..

but what's the point of doing it alone..

or with the wrong company?

It's who you do life with that makes the difference..

Give up the crazy life for a simple one?

Anytime.

Rewrite

I have changed

I'm a better person now.

You played a big part to it and that's a fact!

I AM asking for forgiveness

and I AM asking for a chance to show you

that I AM different now.

This guilt inside me

it's killing me.

 I know I've done horrible things

I was a jerk, an idiot, bastard, fool, piece of sh*t, fool,

and alllllllllll the other similar words you can describe a person.

but i cant let that one person destroy our friendship we once had

It wasn't easy looking back at myself and being disgusted with such a creature

but the good thing is..

HE IS GONE

History..

that I myself don't even want to remember.

And with him out of the way, I hope I can first, patch things up and then start a new beginning..

Repaint, Rewrite, Rerecord,

you name it.

What do I hope to achieve?

To show you the better person..

to show you deserve better..