Distinguish

How does one distinguish such anger about oneself?

I think even if I die,

 

this anger will still live on

Blew

I thought I knew everything

I was never more wrong in my life

Thank you for the many chances you've given me

and

I'm so sorry for the many times I blew those chances

I really wish i learned my lesson earlier

I'm sorry things have to turn out this way

Care

There's a time and a place to die

but it's not here

and not now..

If I didn't care,

I would have just..

gave up

but I care..

Friend

You may have changed

but to me

You'll always be that friend

80%

At first, I was

20% mind

80% heart

Then I got hurt, so I became

70% mind

30% heart

Slowly I became

90% mind

10% heart

 You tried to help me

> mind & < heart

 but the mind% was stubborn and kept increasing

The mind ended things

The heart didn't had any say

but the heart didn't give up

It slowly got back in the game

Hello again, 80% heart

and

Hello 90% mind

(nt 100%, thx to the heart)

Dear mind,

Please let heart lead

It's never too late...

Thank you

Enough

My toes..

they still touch the ground

barely

but enough to keep me alive..

I'm giving my all

with every bit of strength left in me


to not give up..

I don't want to give up

I can't..

Ahead

Like I said

Get lost

I'm never turning back already

Moving ahead it is..

Feeling

After not feeling anything for so long,

I can't recognize the feeling..

but...

it hurts...

Eat

This is NOT suppose to eat me up

urgh

Come

 Come on, come on

I don't believe that things have already ended.

There is more to come.

Come on, come on

Please give it one last chance

Me

I found another person

who can make one's heart race so bad like it's gonna explode.

Me

and I mean in a bad way..

Million

I may change and inspire a thousand or a million lives..

but I know well..

that it can never make up for that one life I've ruined

Want

I know you're still in there

I want to believe so..

Pig

Will a clean pig be seen differently?

Death

Lies

They can cause pain

They can also cause death..

Where

It's really unbelievable..

how one can make another reach to a point

where not just anybody can reach, in fact..

to be so determined about a decision

that changed both lives completely

I really screwed up big time..

went further and further beyond the line..

so far that when I look back, I don't see it anymore..

Where is my way back to the line?

Help me.. 

I'm lost...

Emptiness

Final

It's so sad that how I didn't realize that I was actually hurting myself..

What's even sadder is that I've hurt the one friend that tried very much to prevent this..

The saddest is it took me around 2 years to realize and only start appreciating that one friend.

I'm really sorry.

I hope it's still not too late for things to change

and I promise it will definitely change.

Please give me one final chance..

Best

All the best

You can do it!

Magic

Magic happens when one believes

It disappears when one reasons

Magical

Morning

Good morning..

We used wish each other good morning 1st thing when we wake in the morning..

We used to be close..

I know we can't be as close as before because of what I've done..

But can we at least be friends?

For the sake of the good memories in the past...

Please..

Pull

It's easier to pull someone down

than to pull someone up.

I'm the idiot
to push someone down..

Wrong

I know

 I said I will not regret about anything I do in life..

I was wrong..

Respect

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Actions

Words can only bring me this far

but actions speaks louder than words

So, instead of listening to me

Why not let me show you that I've changed

Please give me a chance..

Season

How long more must I go through this season?

Everyday

Everyday I wish I wasn't the person before

Regrets everyday..

and

Everyday I hope I can one day let go of that past and move forward

Oh, where's the answer...........

Walls

Too much walls have been built in between us

Please stop building some more walls

It's not easy breaking them down

Sorry