Gone

I realized that..

ever since I was a kid..

People usually turn me down..

All my cries will fall on deaf ears..

The times when you are asked to put your hand down

when you have an idea..

"Let's put a pin on that"

they would say..

and never get back to you on that..

they'll tell me the nicest things..
just so I shut up for the mean time..

Makes me wonder what the world would think if I was gone..

"He was a good guy."

*just because he's gone*

I'm sorry  I wasn't a better person..

I'm trying..
everyday..

I'm sorry yh..

Sleep

Can one really forget how to sleep?

I'm sorry yh..

Crack

No matter how much you try to fix something that is broken..

There will always be that crack..

I'm sorry yh..

Please forgive me..

Medicine

No medicine can heal the wound of the heart..

and it can't be from oneself..

but from someone else..

I'm sorry yh..

Streamed

For those nights when the tears streamed

and wet the pillow covers..

I'm sorry yh..

Blog

I hope I can stop writing this blog..

One day..

Experiences

I used to thirst for more experiences..

It's good I say..

but some experiences are just not worth going through..

In fact..

to be avoided instead..

I'm sorry yh..

I really hope I can turn back time..

Far

How far are you?

I can't seem to catch up..

Please wait for me..

Share

I wish I could share things with you like how we used to..

I'm sorry yh..

I'm a part time diver now in Aquaria KLCC.

Please hear me?

...

:(

Dear

Dear God,

I pray that things between me and yh

can be resolved so that we can be friends again.

Help me to be a better person than today

to avoid such an event from happening to anyone else.

In Jesus name

Amen.

Every night..

Good night...

Truth

Please tell me the truth..

I can't see the truth you know..

Please..

I'm really sorry yh..

Matters

 Tell me what's your mind

I want to hear every word you say

Tell me all the things I couldn't see

because it matters to me

Please..

Expolring

If anyone asks me...

I say exploring love is the last thing one should try to do..

Love is not for exploring..

You gotta keep getting it right...

One wrong can ruin everything..

I'm sorry for everything yh..

I'm really sorry..

D*ck

Was organizing my hard disk and

I found some MSN history..

I was so disgusted at myself then..

So disgusted that the only word

that comes close to describing me then is..

*mind my language*

D*CK

Yes

No doubt..

I was such a stupid f*cking d*ck back then

I mean

What the heck was I thinking??

....

...

It's sad that none of those can be changed..

Such an embarrassment...

I'm sorry yh...

Please forgive me..

Obsessed

Maybe why I was obsessed was because..

You were all I have then..

I'm sorry I didn't handled it well..

I didn't know..

I'm sorry yh..

I'm really sorry..

Work

You know that frustration..

When you've got all the wires connected..

All the screws tightened..

All the switches on..

...

But it still doesn't work?

...

I'm sorry yh..

Please give me a last chance..

Please.. 

Screwing

How do I tell you that

our friendship is really very important..

That I treasure it very much..

And that I'm really sorry for screwing things up..

Losing what we should've had..

I'm sorry yh..

Please let us be friend again..

Guy

Even this guy knows better..

Right

When you feel like the whole world is pulling you down..

like it's the end..

Your brothers and sisters in Christ will be there

to back you up!

...

...

right?

Sticky

A history known to almost everyone..

But none speaks of it..

Too sticky to get involved..

I'm sorry yh..

Weak

Tell me it's ok to be weak..

Please..

I'm sorry yh..

Stars

If friends are like stars..

I must be the dumbest person to try to shoot one down just to get closer to it..

I'm sorry for being so stupid..

I'm sorry for hurting you yh..

I'm really really sorry..

Tears

Don't blame the tears..

It's my fault..

Blame me..

I'm sorry..

Should've

I never..

Never..

NEVER..

never should've said goodbye..

Sorry yh..

Expose

The monster scared..

but only in the dark..

Expose it and it'll run..

It'll fear instead..

That's how it ran away..

I'm sorry yh.....

Technical

I'm sorry for being so technical most of the times...

I was so stupid then..

I'm so sorry yh ..

Stupid

Again and again...

I'm so sorry for being so stupid..

I'm sorry yh..

Hate

You can't live with hate..

You're not meant to..

You deserve better..

I'm sorry yh..

Crying

By now..

You can actually tell who is crying 

behind those smiles..

I'm sorry yh

Darn

There are some things I can't bring myself to say..

Or even type them..

But they darn sure need to come out..

Help me..

I'm very sorry yh..

Wings

Enough wasn't enough..

So wings stared to burn..

And you started to fall..

Telling nicely wasn't good enough..

Now you got a damn good scar to remind you..

You happy now, bro?