VBS'14

VBS'14..

Thank Jesus..

I needed it very badly..

Skies

I miss the bright skies..

I've been under the dark skies

for a long time...

Just

Some things just can't be said..

But some things don't have to be said to know..

Thought

The thought of you..

still comforts me..

I'm really sorry yh...

Correct

I'm sorry I didn't know when..

to hold on 

and

to let go

at the correct time..

I'm sorry yh..

Insane

I don't know whether you are keeping me sane...

Or insane...

Side

Here I am..

Doing what everyone what is doing to earn a living..

And there's the dark side trying to pull me over with attractive benefits..

But costing all that I've stood for..

I hope I won't fall like the last time..

I lost more than just myself..

I'm sorry..

Water

It's sad when you have to watch someone walk away..

Feeling helpless with so many emotions to handle..

I can't handle so many of them..

I don't know how to express all of them at the same time..

and I can't swallow them all because they're too much..

...

That's when there's nothing else you can do

but to let the water from your eyes just fall or roll on your cheek...

Hoping that they'll carry all the troubles away..

But no..

You get tired and fall asleep instead..

Waking up..

not feeling that it's a new day..

But a continuation from yesterday instead..

Today is

16th November 2014

...

Yesterday was

20th December 2010

I'm sorry yh..

Soul

Often times..

I get the feeling that my soul falls

when I remember a certain moment..

But my body still still..

Then the usual pain..

It's usual now..

...

 I'm sorry yh

Point

I've reached a point

where I just keep quiet

even when I have something to say..

Because almost everything

and anything that I wanna say

Reminds me of my actions in the past

...

And how they changed everything

...

I'm sorry yh

Thousand

It's like not being invited to a party that

EVERYONE'S

invited to..

and everyone just says

"It's not party, don't ask me why you're not invited."

..

but a thousand times worse..

...

I'm sorry yh..

I'm sorry for mistreating you..

Tougher

I don't know which is tougher..

To hold on..

or

To let go..

Please forgive me..

I'm sorry yh..

Cooled

Things cooled off...

But it doesn't look like it's going away..

Sorry yh..

I have to much memories with you..

Meaningful

It was suppose to be happy and meaningful...

....

I'm sorry I messed things up..

I'm sorry..

Surprising

It's surprising

how far I've been..

..with this mask..

Don't know whether it's a good thing
or a bad thing..

But I'd choose to go without it

if I have a choice..

I'm sorry yh...

Stranger

Let me be a stranger again..

It's easier that way..

..wayy easier...

I'm sorry yh..

Safe

Please be safe there..