Lock

Why is this lock open?

Drifting

I'm slowly drifting away...

Help me..

Why is this happening...

Jesus

Happy birthday Jesus.

Thank you for saving us.

Thank you for loving us.

Most

The day I regret the most in my entire life..

I'm sorry yh

Space

As I stood there..

Stared blankly into space..

Waiting for the store lady

to finish wrapping the gifts..

Fingers blindly swiping the phone..

I realize...

That I used to enjoy

buying Christmas presents..

Saving money..

Had a list of people to buy gifts for..

Hoping that the receiver will love

and enjoy the gift..

Enjoy watching them smile..

...

Now...

That fire just isn't there anymore..

Simply picking a gift that's within budget

for a gift exchange event..

Not expecting the receiver to enjoy..

 Nt looking forward to enjoy receiving..

Like a chore

..

It just sad..

...

I'm sorry yh.. 

Long

I know it's a long shot but...

Please be careful...

Photographed

The never changing moment..

That same smile that never fails..

Hearts that will never break..

Sometimes I rather be frozen in that moment..

Let it be photographed..

I'm sorry things changed because of me..

I'm sorry yh...

I hope we can be friends again..

Smiling

Who said smiling was easy..

It isn't only about  the muscles used..

Easier said than done..

So much of lying to the people around..

Even to yourself...

Perfectly

Standing beside this hole...

Throwing anything and everything I can find in it..

Hoping that I'll hear a sound

of something hitting the bottom..

But they just fall

and disappear into the darkness..

I kept thinking it was a bottomless pit..

But it's just another hole on the other end..

Like an exit..

So nothing will really matter

until I close that hole inside there first..

And I know..

What fits that hole perfectly...

Output

Why is it

that no matter how much of noise I input or output...

I can't drown out this feeling..

Urgh..

Hate it..

Help

Quicksand

Quicksand..

The more you struggle the faster you sink in it..

So I'll just wait for someone to rescue me..

Before I sink in it...

Joyful

December is suppose to a joyful month..

Colourful lights, decorations, smiles..

But I made it too bitter and ugly...

I hope this will change one day..

I'm sorry yh...

I

I kept saying we and us..

Not realising that they were actually all about I and me..

I'm sorry..

Shallow

No...

People don't come and go just like that..

Not all...

This is not life..

It is not that shallow..

...

I'm sorry yh..

Regretful

It's coming...

That very regretful day..

I'm sorry yh...