As I stood there..
Stared blankly into space..
Waiting for the store lady
to finish wrapping the gifts..
Fingers blindly swiping the phone..
I realize...
That I used to enjoy
buying Christmas presents..
Saving money..
Had a list of people to buy gifts for..
Hoping that the receiver will love
and enjoy the gift..
Enjoy watching them smile..
...
Now...
That fire just isn't there anymore..
Simply picking a gift that's within budget
for a gift exchange event..
Not expecting the receiver to enjoy..
Nt looking forward to enjoy receiving..
Like a chore
..
It just sad..
...
I'm sorry yh..