Australia

I got scared when you said you were moving to Australia..

Like my heart skipped a few beats..

I got more scared when you went to Australia..

I'm scared..

Dance

Dance..

Hold each other..

Look at each other..

And go in circles..

until we get tired..

Memories...

I'm sorry yh..

Fake

I've lost what was real..

Now everything seems so fake..

I'm sorry yh

Dream

This must be the dream where we didn't get along!

And it's still on going!

Wake up, wake up!

...

..right?

React

A part of me wants to be a kid again..

To feel again what I once felt..

and to react properly this time..

I'm sorry yh..

Touches

I'm sorry for trying so hard to do the big things

to impress you and get your attention..

And not the small ones

that actually touches the heart..

I'm sorry for not seeing things clearly then..

Minute

Again...

If only I took a minute to listen about her..

than changing her to what I think was right...

Pfft..

Not like my thinking was even right then..

I'm sorry yh...

I'm sorry...

Pain

I didn't felt pain because I didn't understand pain..

Now that I'm older..

I understand pain...

I feel it now..

It hurts..

Her

I miss having such a friend..

Why did I have to be such a pain..

Couldn't I be a better friend then..

I miss her..

:(

Song

"If there is no one there, it means there is no one there.

But at least the war is over."

Just a song..

I keep looking for her..

:(

Plastic

Words of encouragement and promises everywhere..

Still..

I cannot smile with my heart..

I couldn't say 'I can move on'..

Just that plastic smile and 'ok'..

I'm sorry yh..

Blind

Feeling blind now...

Paint an illusion over reality..

Blinding myself from it..

Would I rather be blind than seeing the truth?

I'm sorry yh...

Letters

We could be sending each other letters now..

Sorry yh..

Knock

Where is the courage..

when you need to knock the door?

Drowning

It kinda feels like drowning..

Where you gasp for air but unable to..

It's difficult to take deep breaths nowadays too..

Makes you feel like..

You just don't wanna breathe anymore..

...

Genuinely

Maybe I don't wanna let this go because..

This ache...

This pain in my heart..

is the one prove..

that I've been genuinely cared before..

Thank you, yh..

Sorry yh..

Destructive

I fear...

I'm fragile..

But destructive as well..

I fear I will hurt myself and/or you..

I can't do this myself..

Please help me..

Good

Happy birthday yh...

Have a good one... :]

Sank

My heart sank when I saw you...

I tried going back to see you again..

But I couldn't find you..

Reality kept pulling me back..

I'm sorry yh..

Appreciated

I promise I will do my best

so this doesn't happen to anyone..

I'm sorry yh..

I should've appreciated you more..

Cheated

Dear yh..

I made a million and one excuses and reasons for that incident..

I'm sorry I wasn't honest with you that time..

As much as I hate to admit it..

As much as I despise it..

I cheated..

There's just..

no words fancy
enough to cover that fact..

Who am I lying when I came up

with those so called reasons?

And to even think I could get away..

Fool...

Foolishgoodfornothingchild..

I suck!

I suck big time for cheating..

 I don't even dare ask for forgiveness

because even I myself despise greatly

for what I've done..









I don't know..

I'm just really sorry for what I've done
and I really hope we can be friends again..

I'm sorry for running our friendship..

On

Lights still on when I wake up....

I'm sorry yh..

Over

I'm sorry I can't come over this time round..

I would really love to if I can..

Sorry..

First

I used to be first choice..

Is it old age?

I hope..

I know I'd still be first choice

if I treasured it more back then..

And if I didn't screw things up..

I'm really sorry yh...

Please give me a chance..

Happily

It was suppose to be happily ever after...

Not broken pieces of us scattered everywhere..

Never did I wanted any of these...

I'm really really sorry..

Please forgive me..