Zombie

It's just so hard to enjoy anything..

when there's this weight pulling you down..

It's like trying to enjoy for..

..nothing..

like a zombie..

Wen

Happy birthday, Wen..

but..

why you too...?

Know

I don't know..

I know damn well

I don't deserve anymore chances

but here I am

still hoping

that there's a chance..

Really...

I really don't know..

Balloon

Purple balloon...

please come back..

I'm sorry..

I never should've let you go..

Story

Please don't tell everyone my story.

It hurts.

Please let me insert the fixing part in it first...

Funny

It's funny..

and sad in a way..

that I need a pair of ears to breathe..

Here is another week...

Draining

Everybody wants some of my joy

but

nobody wants any of my pain..

Draining quickly with no refill..

Please help me..

Jump

I don't wanna jump to conclusion

and make stories up like last time..

I want to hear your story first..

Ultimate

Death is not ultimate..

..suffering is..

Resting

'Can you keep up?'

No.

I feel like resting

but time won't stop for me..

or anybody, in fact.

Help me..

Treasure

Hi, Opportunity...

I'm sorry I blew my chance..

Big Time

Please give another chance..

I promise I will treasure it..

Please..

Strangers

I rather be strangers.

This is worse than strangers..

Trusting

"Keep trusting in Me."

ok..

Love

Will I ever be loved genuinely?

One day? Maybe?

Let's not even talk about 'life partner' love.

'Friend' love?

I know I did shit in the past.

How much harder must I work to make up for my mistakes?

or is forever not enough?

Stage

Omgosh.......

Please don't tell me that I've come to the stage

where I think these signs are telling me to die...

Hate this feeling..

URGH!

Rather

If so,

I rather not have the privilege to feel

than to kill the people I care for.

*Keeps hands in pocket*

I'm really sorry that things have to be this way..

Decays

When you realize

that whatever you touch

decays..

FCOL

24FCOL

Fixed

Damaged

Scared

Will I ever be treated as fixed?

or healed?

I hope I get one last chance..

Forever

I really hope it doesn't have to be like this forever..

I hope it won't be too late as well..

So much yet so little to hope for...

I'm so sorry...

Please give me a chance.

Birthday

If I can have one wish

for anything that I desire for this birthday...

It'll be..

to be forgiven

i'm sorry yh

Granted

I used to be cared..

then I took it for granted...

I'm sorry..

Now nobody cares..

Choice

I'm sorry

I can't make that choice.

Werewolf

I always thought I created a monster.

Like Frankenstein.

But turns out,

I'm the monster.

Like a Werewolf.

So how do you kill the beast

without killing the human inside it?

I'm sorry...

Pretending

Now..

when I try to sit alone

just to be still,

everyone thinks I'm pretending..

They mock me...

Mock

People hated me

for being bad in the past.

But now people mock me

for trying to be good..

It's a sad and tough to life now..

Please give me a chance..

Fail

Every time a rare opportunity arises

I try so hard

and I will fail.

But what if I fail 

 because I don't try hard enough?

: (

Faster

"You don't just walk out

and then come back

and expect everything to be aright!"

 ***

Dear time,

Please heal faster.

Hopefully

Hopefully I'll wake up one day

and this will all be just a dream

and

I will make sure this dream

will never come true..

Quiet

I'm a loud person

Always trying to be louder

to stand out among the crowd.

but...

****

I used to have a friend

who sits quietly

minds her own thing..

while I do the crazy things..

We watched each other from our different worlds.

I kept trying to get her to join me.

She tries..because she is a friend..

a very good one..

Until one day..

I shouted at her too loud to try harder...

for too long...

=which is the my biggest regret=

The crowd kept quiet

and they started leaving

including her...

****

I'm tired...

I just wanna sit down

and be quiet..

but I don't wanna sit alone...

I miss her..

I'm sorry for not accepting the person you were

I'm sorry for forcing you

I'm sorry for trying to be so loud to impress you

that I didn't listen to what you have to say

Avoided

At times, I shake my head at myself

regretting the things I did to her before

thinking of how all this could have been avoided

if I was a better person