Why is this lock open?
Dec 29, 2014
Dec 25, 2014
Dec 20, 2014
Dec 19, 2014
Space
As I stood there..
Stared blankly into space..
Waiting for the store lady
to finish wrapping the gifts..
Fingers blindly swiping the phone..
I realize...
That I used to enjoy
buying Christmas presents..
Saving money..
Had a list of people to buy gifts for..
Hoping that the receiver will love
and enjoy the gift..
Enjoy watching them smile..
...
Now...
That fire just isn't there anymore..
Simply picking a gift that's within budget
for a gift exchange event..
Not expecting the receiver to enjoy..
Nt looking forward to enjoy receiving..
Like a chore
..
It just sad..
...
I'm sorry yh..
Dec 16, 2014
Dec 14, 2014
Photographed
The never changing moment..
That same smile that never fails..
Hearts that will never break..
Sometimes I rather be frozen in that moment..
Let it be photographed..
I'm sorry things changed because of me..
I'm sorry yh...
I hope we can be friends again..
Dec 13, 2014
Dec 12, 2014
Perfectly
Standing beside this hole...
Throwing anything and everything I can find in it..
Hoping that I'll hear a sound
of something hitting the bottom..
But they just fall
and disappear into the darkness..
I kept thinking it was a bottomless pit..
But it's just another hole on the other end..
Like an exit..
So nothing will really matter
until I close that hole inside there first..
And I know..
What fits that hole perfectly...
Dec 11, 2014
Dec 9, 2014
Dec 7, 2014
Dec 6, 2014
Dec 2, 2014
Dec 1, 2014
Nov 28, 2014
Nov 25, 2014
Nov 23, 2014
Nov 20, 2014
Nov 19, 2014
Nov 18, 2014
Nov 16, 2014
Water
It's sad when you have to watch someone walk away..
Feeling helpless with so many emotions to handle..
I can't handle so many of them..
I don't know how to express all of them at the same time..
and I can't swallow them all because they're too much..
...
That's when there's nothing else you can do
but to let the water from your eyes just fall or roll on your cheek...
Hoping that they'll carry all the troubles away..
But no..
You get tired and fall asleep instead..
Waking up..
not feeling that it's a new day..
But a continuation from yesterday instead..
Today is
16th November 2014
...
Yesterday was
20th December 2010
I'm sorry yh..
Nov 14, 2014
Nov 13, 2014
Nov 12, 2014
Nov 11, 2014
Nov 10, 2014
Nov 8, 2014
Meaningful
It was suppose to be happy and meaningful...
....
I'm sorry I messed things up..
I'm sorry..
Nov 5, 2014
Surprising
It's surprising
how far I've been..
..with this mask..
Don't know whether it's a good thing
or a bad thing..
But I'd choose to go without it
if I have a choice..
I'm sorry yh...
..with this mask..
Don't know whether it's a good thing
or a bad thing..
But I'd choose to go without it
if I have a choice..
I'm sorry yh...
Nov 3, 2014
Oct 31, 2014
Oct 29, 2014
Oct 27, 2014
Oct 26, 2014
Offer
I'm still sorry because I took so long to undestand..
Too long..
Too late..
I'm sorry..
I'm sorry I rejected your offer to stay as good friends..
I'm sorry for taking that offer
and throwing it back at you..
I hate what I did..
I'm really sorry yh..
I hope we can be friends again..
Oct 24, 2014
Oct 23, 2014
Oct 22, 2014
Weakness
It's called weakness for a reason..
It hurts!
Felt like being bullied when I was a kid..
I couldn't do anything but pretend to smile
and listen to their song..
Others just watched silently
to not cause a scene..
I could feel the tears
filling up behind my eyes..
It's not funny..
I need help..
Please help me, yh..
Please..
I'm really sorry...
Oct 21, 2014
Oct 19, 2014
Oct 18, 2014
Oct 17, 2014
Oct 16, 2014
Oct 14, 2014
Oct 12, 2014
Nightmares
One of the worst nightmares I've ever had..
A whole new level of pain and suffering..
Please don't let it be true....
I'm sorry...
I'm sorry yh....
Oct 10, 2014
Oct 8, 2014
Oct 6, 2014
Oct 5, 2014
Oct 3, 2014
Oct 2, 2014
Oct 1, 2014
Sep 30, 2014
Sep 28, 2014
Sep 25, 2014
Sep 24, 2014
Sep 23, 2014
Sep 22, 2014
Sep 20, 2014
Sep 18, 2014
Sep 14, 2014
Sep 12, 2014
Sep 10, 2014
Sep 9, 2014
Sep 7, 2014
Sep 4, 2014
Sep 3, 2014
Sep 2, 2014
Disastrous
"He seems fine the way he is right now.
He should stay this way.
Don't let him do anything else...
Could be disastrous.."
Sep 1, 2014
Aug 31, 2014
Aug 30, 2014
Aug 29, 2014
Aug 28, 2014
Smithereens
Someone was happy making me happy..
Seeing me happy...
And yep..
Blew it all to smithereens..
Stupid idiot..
Aug 27, 2014
Aug 26, 2014
Aug 24, 2014
Aug 23, 2014
Aug 22, 2014
Aug 18, 2014
Aug 17, 2014
Aug 16, 2014
Aug 15, 2014
Aug 14, 2014
Commitment
"Force someone to make a commitment that the person can't
and then make them feel bad because they can't?
You are one ugly piece of shit!"
I'm sorry...
Aug 13, 2014
Aug 12, 2014
Aug 11, 2014
Aug 9, 2014
Jason
Jason..
"I'll tell your kids I used to go after you like mad last time."
Ting..
"And I'll tell your kids that story too one day"
And we all have a good laugh..
They fell...
Hard.....
But they picked themselves up..
We can achieve that..
Please forgive me, yh..
I'm sorry..
Aug 7, 2014
Aug 6, 2014
Aug 5, 2014
Prevent
Broken hearts...
Everywhere...
I think the best advice is from the people with experience..
But that's not what the victims think...
They think their secrets will be exposed..
I mean..
We're just trying to help..
I want to prevent what happened to me
happen to you..
Because I know...
It can really get very ugly..
I'm sorry yh..
Aug 3, 2014
Complication
What do I want for my birthday?
Just one...
Just one more chance..
Please...
I'm begging you..
Just that and nothing more..
I wish things can go back
to the way they were..
But without the complication and ugliness..
I'm sorry yh..
Aug 2, 2014
Aug 1, 2014
Jul 31, 2014
Jul 30, 2014
Jul 27, 2014
Jul 26, 2014
Jul 25, 2014
Jul 24, 2014
Jul 23, 2014
Jul 22, 2014
Jul 21, 2014
Jul 20, 2014
Jul 19, 2014
Jul 17, 2014
Jul 15, 2014
Jul 13, 2014
Jul 12, 2014
Jul 11, 2014
Jul 10, 2014
Destructive
I fear...
I'm fragile..
But destructive as well..
I fear I will hurt myself and/or you..
I can't do this myself..
Please help me..
Jul 8, 2014
Jul 7, 2014
Appreciated
I promise I will do my best
so this doesn't happen to anyone..
I'm sorry yh..
I should've appreciated you more..
Jul 6, 2014
Cheated
Dear yh..
I made a million and one excuses and reasons for that incident..
I'm sorry I wasn't honest with you that time..
As much as I hate to admit it..
As much as I despise it..
I cheated..
There's just..
no words fancy
enough to cover that fact..
no words fancy
enough to cover that fact..
Who am I lying when I came up
with those so called reasons?
And to even think I could get away..
Fool...
Foolishgoodfornothingchild..
I suck!
I suck big time for cheating..
I don't even dare ask for forgiveness
because even I myself despise greatly
for what I've done..
I don't know..
I'm just really sorry for what I've done
and I really hope we can be friends again..
I'm sorry for running our friendship..
I don't know..
I'm just really sorry for what I've done
and I really hope we can be friends again..
I'm sorry for running our friendship..
Jul 3, 2014
Jul 2, 2014
Jul 1, 2014
Jun 30, 2014
Jun 29, 2014
Jun 28, 2014
Jun 26, 2014
Jun 25, 2014
Unresolved
Nobody thinks of the dead's unresolved issues..
Just how good that person was when alive..
I don't know...
I just want to rest in peace..
Please forgive me, yh..
Jun 23, 2014
Jun 22, 2014
Jun 21, 2014
Jun 20, 2014
Jun 19, 2014
Jun 15, 2014
Jun 14, 2014
Jun 12, 2014
Jun 11, 2014
Jun 9, 2014
Jun 8, 2014
Constantly
And I thought I'd find something in this trip..
Gotta constantly remind myself bout reality..
Sigh..
Jun 7, 2014
Jun 6, 2014
Jun 4, 2014
Jun 1, 2014
May 30, 2014
Dictionary
The word 'sorry' only weighs as much as your actions..
Without them, its just gonna be another word in the dictionary..
So what can I do now to make my sorry mean something?
Please tell me..
Please let me...
:(
May 29, 2014
May 28, 2014
May 27, 2014
May 23, 2014
May 22, 2014
May 20, 2014
May 19, 2014
May 18, 2014
May 17, 2014
May 16, 2014
May 14, 2014
May 13, 2014
May 12, 2014
May 11, 2014
May 10, 2014
Shackles
The weight one has to carry around everywhere..
Unable to do anything freely with those shackles..
That strength one needs to go through everyday with those burdens..
I pray that these shackles will be broken
and those weight be lifted one day..
Please forgive me yh..
May 9, 2014
May 8, 2014
May 7, 2014
May 6, 2014
May 5, 2014
May 4, 2014
May 3, 2014
May 2, 2014
May 1, 2014
Apr 30, 2014
Underwater
Underwater..
It's not that peaceful when your heart is not calm..
Please forgive me, yh..
I'm sorry..
Apr 28, 2014
Apr 27, 2014
Apr 26, 2014
Apr 25, 2014
Bitterness
How do I ask for anything when I don't deserve anything?
How can I sound unselfish for wanting to be friends again?
I don't want this bitterness between us..
I want to make things right..
I'm so sorry yh..
Please forgive me..
Apr 23, 2014
Apr 22, 2014
Apr 21, 2014
Apr 20, 2014
Apr 19, 2014
Inevitable
I always knew..
that losing someone was inevitable..
I just didn't expect it to be this soon..
I'm not prepared for it..
I'm sorry yh..
Apr 18, 2014
Apr 17, 2014
Desire
The desire to meet someone who hates you to the guts
and doesn't want to meet you....
To talk things out..
To make things right..
To ask for forgiveness..
To find back an old friend..
To try everything that's possible
Impossible
even those that don't exist..
to earn back that friendship..
.
It really hurts to the guts..
No..
It hurts so much more than that..
..
I'm sorry yh..
I hope and pray we can be friends again...
.
I'm really really sorry..
I am...
Apr 16, 2014
Forgetting
Fading...
Bit by bit..
Forgetting what we were last time..
Before being broken like now..
I'm sorry yh..
Please forgive me..
Apr 15, 2014
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 13, 2014
Apr 11, 2014
Apr 10, 2014
Apr 9, 2014
Apr 8, 2014
Apr 7, 2014
Apr 6, 2014
Disposable
I recently learned that..
People can and will discard family members..
like they are disposable..
like the word family doesn't mean much..
What more if it's just a friend?
...
I'm sorry yh..
Please don't discard me..
Apr 4, 2014
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